The Answer to My Fears

As I crossed a busy street on my way home from language class today, I saw the Ocho (my bus) pull away from the bus-stop. Instead of waiting 15 minutes for the next Ocho, I decided to walk home. It’s was about 105 degrees at the time, so I worked up a nice sweat thanks to the 45-minute walk with my backpack.

As I walked and thought, my mind went to the place it usually does: “What’s next?” This is a question I can rarely escape. It can be applied to almost any situation in life. Where will we live next? What will we do next? Who should I ask about what comes next? Endless.

I wasn’t expecting it, but it was as if God the Holy Spirit interrupted my dreaming/wondering/worrying with, Does it really matter? If God really is your Father, AND if He really always does the best, most loving thing for you, AND if He really is powerful enough to guide and direct and protect- if all that really is true- then does it really matter what comes next?” What a fantastic answer to my hamster-wheel mind!

In the last year or so, it has become easier for me to grasp the reality that God is my Father when it comes to my sin and guilt. Little by little, I’m believing that He loves me, accepts me, and forgives me because of Jesus’s death and resurrection. I’m His son now, and He accepts me. However, I’ve haven’t been remembering that the same Father who accepts me is also the God who directs my life. It’s not my job anymore to figure out what’s next. It’s my job to live in a dependent relationship with God and trust (like a dumb sheep) that Someone is taking care of me.

People who count these things say that Jesus’s most frequent command in the New Testament is, “Do not fear.” For the same reason we named our second son Jairus, to whom Jesus said, “Do not fear, only believe.”

If God really is my Father, and if He really loves me and has the power to take care of me, there is no longer a reason to wonder and worry and chart my own course. The life of a child of God is a life of peace, even in the midst of uncertainty, because our Father can take care of us.


About Brian Phillips

Brian lives in Spain with Kassie and their kids.
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2 Responses to The Answer to My Fears

  1. Louise Jones says:

    This truly is a great revelation from God that you can relax and trust Him day-to-day with what is happening in your life. The book I gave you “Handbook to Happiness” helped me see that He has enough to keep me busy and in ministry mode EVERYDAY if I become more acute to this concept. Carry on, Brian!


  2. Margaret says:

    Thanks for sharing this Brian. These are ‘simple’ truths but so incredibly hard to functionally believe. I needed to be reminded of this – like, really needed to be grabbed by the shoulders and have it yelled at me. 🙂 Reading was more pleasant.

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